A woman mid-relapse, screaming at the person who left her there. Blame, need and rage arrive in the same breath: "It's your fault I'm shaking" and "You're my bad habit, my fix, my way back in."
How it’s built
A swelling bassline and mechanical ticking. A pre-chorus that tightens. A drop into a heavy chorus. A near-empty, drunk second verse. A pleading bridge over arpeggios. A screaming climax that falls to silence.
Kat on singing it
"The first time I read it I said there is no way I can sing this."
Lyrics
Another cold sweat, another dirty floor
You left the house and you locked the door
You call it "clean," you call it "tough love"
But you pushed me down just to look above
The world is a leech, it drinks from my veins
And you stand there holding the keys to my chains
I didn't choose to fall, you let me slide
You took my safety and you ran to hide
Now the room is spinning, the neon is red
I'm choking on every word you said
It's your fault I'm shaking, what else can I do
Look what you made me do…
Back in the dirt, with your name in my mouth
You cut the cord, then you shut the lights out
Don't leave me here when the edges go black
If you lit the match, then you owe me that
Come back, come back to the wreck and the noise
Come back, come back, be the hands and the voice
Answer your fucking phone, pull me out of the spin
You're my bad habit, my fix, my way back in
So what if I stole? So what if I lied?
You're the one who kept your hands clean outside
The doctors, the clinics, they don't know shit
They feed me their poison, then tell me to quit
And you… you were supposed to be my shield
But you left me bleeding out in the field
I hate this world, it's a fucking zoo
But if I go down, I'm taking you too
The walls are closing, the shadows are cold
I'm breaking the only promise I hold
It's your fault I'm shaking, what else can I do
Look what you made me do…
Back in the dirt, with your name in my mouth
You cut the cord, then you shut the lights out
Don't leave me here when the edges go black
If you lit the match, then you owe me that
Come back, come back to the wreck and the noise
Come back, come back, be the hands and the voice
Answer your fucking phone, pull me out of the spin
You're my bad habit, my fix, my way back in
I'm sorry… I didn't mean to scream
But you're the only real thing in this dream
Please… don't leave me alone tonight
I can't breathe without your light
I'll burn us both to the ground
I've done it before… I'll do it again…
And again and again
Don't you dare walk away!
You owe me! You made me this way!
Come back!
Come back!
It's all your fault…
Your fault…
Come back…
Please…